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I think I am actually truely Happy...
For the first time in a long time...
I am smiling..
and laughing
So I thank you....
Because you've done more than you even know
Because you are you.............
I just hope for the best.........
and some how
things will work out the way they are supposed to work out
Until then....
xoxox
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| This is fact not fiction...for the first time in years....
Happy Holidays to all those I haven't seen in years...
all of those people who I still hold close to my heart even though miles have seperated us...
even though we have parted ways..
or maybe just fell out of touch with....
Things are different now....
much different then I had ever imagined they would be
Years ago...if you had told me I would be the person I am now.... I would have laughed...
and would have told you that you didn't really know me at all...
Don't get me wrong..I'm not saying that I am unhappy with the person that I am now..
and don't assume that I've really changed that much....I haven't..... just experienced things that have shaped me into ....something a little different
I long for the things that I used to have...but in a different way now....
a new perspective..
wondering ..if this whole time I have just been blinded by my own ignorance
and if I've just been keeping myself from being truely happy
For a long time...these smiles have been fake...
and it's been obvious...when my mouth is smiling and my eyes are telling you a whole different story
every song that I long to hear is sad...a reminder of how I constantly feel about everything in my life..
It's always cold..and raining here...damp and dark
I long for warm places...the warm sun on my face...
no cares in the world..no worries...
so I envy you....
But ...as the new year aproaches.. I have a renewed feeling...in life and hope ..and love and friends and lust...and truth...
something that I haven't been able to find...in years....
I've spent far too much time searching in the dark for all the wrong answers
waiting for you to shed some light on my life and help me out of this rut...that I couldn't seem to get myself out of...
I was wrong....
I didn't need your help....
I needed to believe in myself...again...in order to believe in anything real in this world
So...happy holidays to all of you....
I love you all so much..
and miss you... more than you know....
how I long to hear some of your voices....
to laugh like we used to ..and smile...to share secrets....and to be happy
I'm sorry for leaving all of you in the dark
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| I'm not the person I used to be..no one is..but I'm not giving up on all the things that I know are true.
I love all of my friends and I miss all of you dearly....
Chuck....give me a call...I could use someone to talk to......
I'm starting over...again..and again and again..but not letting go..not giving up ...not losing this again.
xoxox me
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The Promised Schedule!!!
+Saturday, Jan. 26th Salisbury MS Starts @2pm
+Saturday, March 2 (tent) Delaware Valley HS. Starts @ 3pm
+Saturday, March 9 Souderton HS Starts @1pm
+Saturday, March 16 Governor Mifflin HS Starts @1pm
+Saturday, March 23 Emmaus HS Starts @2:30pm
+Saturday, April 6 Whitehall HOMESHOW Starts @2pm
+Saturday, April 13 Northampton MS Starts @2pm
+Saturday, April 20 Salisbury HS Starts @2pm
+Saturday, April 27 Chapter 2 Championships (TBA)
+Thursday, May 2 - Sunday, May 5 All Chapter Championships in WILDWOOD, NJ
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